Clint has now been deployed for about five or six weeks. We are doing well. The boys are on a routine and life is not too bad. It is interesting to me that most of the time we do just fine, but other times we just really do miss our Daddy and husband. The nights I think are the worst, when the boys are long gone to bed and I just want to talk to someone. Sometimes I write in my journal, other times I just sit and think, sometimes I find solace in my scriptures. Each day is different. Each is an adventure. I think I am doing well, but I think I miss Clint more during this deployment then other times. I do not know what the difference is, but I think it is just that I have been through it quite a few times and know how long twelve months really truly is. The boys are older in this one so they have been quite a big help although I know it is very hard for them too.
I made it to the bus stop today on time. The kids did not whine at all. They cleaned up their breakfast, brushed their teeth and got ready for the day. They were even smiling nd laughing. Makes me realize how strong my family has truly become through it all. Now if I could just get myself motivated on those not so lovely days we would be golden.
My brother had a baby girl on the 22nd in the wee hours of the morning. I am an aunt again. Not that that has anything to do with Clint's deployment but it does help me to recognize God's hand in our life. ..... A couple weeks ago on a Sunday we had Ward Conference. Talk about needing to be there. For those of us who have children and husbands gone we feel at times it may be easier to sleep in. That was the case that Sunday. Steven and Timothy however would not hear of it. They wanted to be at church so off we went. I think the Spirit works through my boys on me sometimes because my head is too hard to get through. Our Stake President and his councellor were speaking. I have never met President Mulchek before, but I was truly amazed. I have really watched people in my life. I look at auras and can just feel a strong spirit. Well I looked up at the podium and all I can tell you is this wonderful righteous man glowed. He glowed so bright I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. I took off my glasses and rubbed my eyes to make sure. No they were fine, it was him. I usually do not take notes at church, but felt inspired to do so. His message was just what I needed. It was that Forever really is not so far away. I needed that. I needed that experience. After sacrament President Mulchek went around and shook every person's hand. Amazing! He was so sincere and so loving and we all knew it. I know that I needed to be at church that Sunday. I needed to feel that spirit. I needed to know that I really did not have to wait so long to have forever with my family. I also had an interview with President Gilchrist his councellor after church. Just another wonderful amazing man that made me feel at ease as I renewed my recommend and once again felt my Heavenly Father's love. Anyhow I do not know why I decided to blog this, but I did. I am so grateful for a Father in Heaven who loves me and lets me be happy and inspired when I need to be, even when I do not feel like I need it.
Well so that is my thoughts for the day. I am going to go make cookies for my boys now. I would like to have a nice sweet afternoon when they return from school. We shall surely see.;)
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